Be Present

I live in a city named for wisdom, yet it was a trip away that helped me to see the wisdom I've been missing here.

Lately, I have been seriously questioning what I want to do with my life. It seems like every aspect is up in the air: What degree should I get? Should I have a job next year? What the hell am I doing with my dating life? So many questions have been burdening my mind and causing me more worry than they should. I have this need to know now what I am supposed to do years down the road and it kills me to not be able to look into my crystal ball and see how everything plays out.

But yesterday I drove to a town that looks like it should be surrounded by mountains, and met some of the most amazing people, people who helped explain what my mother is telling me constantly- you don't have to have it all figured out today!

Mama and Papa Scraw (aka the Strausses) answered my struggling questions. They talked about how we- I- am not God. I don't have the power to see the future or control it. At first, that drove me nuts. But when I thought about it, I realized what a positive thing that is. God knows everything, so I don't have to. I simply have to seek Him and live in the present moment and things will fall into place. I get to enjoy this and every part of my life, rather than watching the scenery fly past. I am nineteen- young and strong and able to learn and grow. I have amazing friends that I get to sing and laugh and cry with, and a family that cares for me. I have sunshine and starwatching and torrential rainfall. I have life, and I have someone who is always there to walk through it with me, slowly opening my eyes to the beauty that lies along the path.